I started going to a private therapist in November of 2014. My parents had to practically drag me to therapy every week. I didn’t think I needed it. I thought I was doing just fine without it, but truth is, I wouldn’t be here without it. I was seeing her regularly for a month until about mid December when she told my parents I needed more help on a bigger scale, a scale she could not provide me. She told my parents I needed to be enrolled into Peninsula’s care immediately.
Peninsula is a mental health facility who deals with inpatient and outpatient therapy. My parents enrolled me into a Peninsula’s care with a therapist who also recommended me a psychiatrist who I still see every month to refill my mediations. March of 2015 I was prescribed my first dose of the antidepressant, Wellbutrin. My psychiatrist put me on the highest dosage she could prescribe. I took that daily while doing therapy every week. Throughout my sessions, my therapist thought I needed something else because I seemed to be getting worse, and It was starting to scare her. So, my psychiatrist prescribed me Prozac and then Abilify. I was on those three medications for 2 years, and was recently prescribed another medicine, Zoloft, after another attempt on my life.
I currently am on all four medications on the highest doses possible. I take them every single day in the morning with some type of juice. I have been in Peninsula’s outpatient therapy for 3 years now, and was in their Intensive Outpatient therapy for 1 month last year. It has helped me tremendously. I was extremely resistant to both therapy and medication at first, but they keep me alive so I utilize them. The medicine helps uplift me everyday, and aids in helping me get out of bed every single day. It helps divert my dangerous thoughts away while therapy teaches me coping skills to use while on my medication. My dream is to be able to function like a regular person doing day to day tasks without the help of medicine.
If you are struggling with mental illness, medication and therapy is the best route to take. It is noting to be ashamed of. Those two things will keep you alive until you’re able to healthily function on your own. If you are a parent watching your child struggle, medicine and therapy will be a good start. It was very hard for my parents to put me on medicine because they were embarrassed which is perfectly normal, but in the long run it will help you or your child healthy again.